Embryo of Philosophy

Things that are troubling me:

I signed up for BookMooch. I thought it would be a good idea. I forgot that I cannot do anything without becoming severely stressed. First there's worry about shipping and packaging properly. That I could probably deal with. Then I had someone from the Philippines emailing to ask if I would ship a book to them. Postage to the Philippines would be over ten dollars. Money is kind of tight for me. I agonized. I would feel guilty if I turned them down, but...

The, someone else emailed me, saying that they would like the book if I decided not to send it to the Philippines. So, no matter what I do, I'll disappoint someone. So, I'm doing my classic avoidance technique and not answering either person and trying to make the situation go away from ignoring it. It's never worked before, but there's a first time for everything, right?

I really can't do anything without feeling guilty. I feel guilty over everything. I've even felt guilty for aging! And all of the irrational guilt only makes me angrier at myself.

When I feel bad, I cheer myself up either purchasing something or fandom stuff (sometimes buying fandom stuff). As I've said, money is a bit of a problem. So, meme time!

➀ comment with a character that I've written.
➁ receive three bits of headcanon about their sexuality: practices, preferences, experiences, fantasies, kinks, etc.
➂ receive information about their current love life and/or sex life if applicable and I feel like rambling at you. (signs point to yes.)
➃ receive three bits of headcanon about their life outside of sexuality and romance.

The "You Should Write..." Meme!
Veleda_k

Taking a chance that there will be a resounding silence, or, worse, "You really shouldn't write at all."

From fannish5:

Name five series that should have had a musical episode (and how it could have been explained).


1. Merlin! Anthony Head is there. He sings! It would be full of goodness. Probably hilarious goodness, but you can do a serious musical episode. It could be explained, like just about everything else in the series is explained, by a magic spell. Even better if the sorcerer who cast it wasn't evil, just mischievous. Or maybe Merlin does it accidentally.

2. Psych. Because, once again, hilarious. Someone gets murdered while rehearsing for a musical, and Shawn decides that what he and Gus really need to do is join the cast in an attempt to find the killer. Juliet and Lassiter should get roped in too. Because Lassiter's reaction would be priceless.

3. X-Files. Aliens made them sing! I am endlessly amused by the thought of the conspiracy working out their wicked plans... in verse. And Mulder and Scully would have to continually resist the urge to sing a sappy romantic duet, because dammit, they are not sappy romantic duet people!

4. Doctor Who. Because the Doctor should have to sing karaoke in order to SAVE THE KNOWN UNIVERSE.

5. I'm out of ideas, actually.

And a meme.

Name your 10 absolutely favorite couples (het/slash/canon/fanon) and ask people to see what trends they notice about your couples. Try to pick different fandoms:

1. Anthy/Utena (Revolutionary Girl Utena)
2. Tsuzuki/Hisoka (Yami no Matsuei)
3. Cain/Riff (Count Cain/Godchild)
4. Merlin/Arthur (Merlin)
5. Gwen/Morgana (Merlin)
6. Kouya/Yamato (Loveless)
7. Shunsui/Nanao (Bleach)
8. Haruka/Michiru (Sailor Moon)
9. Meryl/Vash (Trigun)
10. Kougaiji/Yaone/Doku (Saiyuki)

Comment to this entry and I'll pick three of your fandoms. You must (or rather, if you want to) then update your journal and answer the following questions:

01: What got you into this fandom in the first place?
02: Do you think you'll stay in this fandom or eventually move on?
03: Favorite episodes/books/movies/etc.?
04: Do you participate in this fandom (fanfiction, graphics, discussions)?
05: Do you think that more people should get into this fandom?


dancing_serpent gave me Count Cain, Merlin, Yami no Matsuei.

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It's time for shag, marry, cliff!

Rules:

1. Comment to this and I will give you 3 people.
2. Label which you would marry, shag, and throw off a cliff.
3. Provide pictures and the names of 3 people.
4. Post this meme with your answers.

b_hallward gave me Faith, Tara, and Buffy.

Well, considering that I spend most of season three thinking, "Oh, god, Faith, do me now," Faith goes in the shag category. I couldn't put up with her for long, plus, she's not exactly the commitment type, but a night of mind blowing sex? Yeah. (Or two nights... okay, three at the most.)

Tara is sweet, responsible, and understanding. Excellent marriage material. She does have some self esteem issues, but they're not so crippling that I would be driven crazy by my inability to "heal" her. She's patient enough to put up with my mood swings and my oversensitive nature, but I could count on her to put her foot down when it really mattered. And she could teach me magic! That would be so cool.

Plus, you know, she's utterly gorgeous.

Which leaves Buffy to be thrown off of a cliff. I feel kind of bad about it (unless it's season seven Buffy, in which case, she had it coming), but, hey, she has slayer powers, so she'll be fine.

It's spring break! Oh, yes, thank you god, I needed this.

And how did I decide to celebrate? Fanfic, of course! Specifically, this meme:

1. Pick a character, pairing, or fandom you like
2. Turn on your music player and put it on random/shuffle
3. Write a drabble related to each song that plays. You only have the time frame of the song to finish the drabble; you start when the song starts and stop when it's over, no lingering afterwards!
4. Do ten of these, then post them.

Only, the second half of step three? I didn't bother with that at all. I took my sweet time, thank you very much.

Anyway, the fandom I choose was Revolutionary Girl Utena.

Some of these may make you go, "Uh, the drabble and song have nothing to do with each other. What was Veleda on?." I apologize.

Song: Corrupt- Karissa Noel
Pairing: One-sided Kozue/Miki
Rating: PG-13

( Kozue could taste blood in her mouth... )


Song: Notes/Twisted Every Way- Phantom of the Opera
Characters: Student council
Rating: PG
A/N: Played awfully loose with this song, but that was inevitable unless I wanted to go severely AU. (Actually, that might not have been a bad idea...)

( Dueling? Are we in some swashbuckling romance? This is ludicrous... )


Song: See How The Fates Their Gifts Allot- The Mikado
Characters: Wakaba, Saionji (mentioned)
Rating: PG
Spoilers: Episode 20
A/N: Quite a bit darker than the actual song. Oh well.

( Wakaba's mother had always told her that life just wasn't fair, and Wakaba had believed her... )


Song: Uptown Girl- Billy Joel
Pairing: One-sided Tsuwabuki/Nanami (In the most innocent possible way.)
Rating: G
A/N: There might possibly be something wrong with me.

( Tsuwabuki had to admit that he couldn't support Nanamai-san in the manner she was accustomed to on his allowance... )


Song: Call and Answer- Barenaked Ladies
Pairing: Touga/Saionji
Rating: PG
Spoilers: End of the series
A/N: Set post-series

( When Touga arrived at the dojo, Saionji was waiting, shinai in hand... )


Song: Shoe Box- Barenaked Ladies
Characters: Ruka, Shiori, Juri (Mentioned)
Rating: PG
Spoilers: Episode 29

( Tsuchiya-sempai, We made muffins in cooking class, and I thought that you might like one... )


Song: Good Old Fashioned lover Boy- Jason Mraz (Queen Cover)
Pairing: Touga/...You know, I want it to be a surprise.
Rating: PG-13
Spoilers: Takes place post-series, but none, really.
A/N: At times, I labor under the illusion that I am slightly amusing. I apologize.

( The thing people didn't understand about being the campus playboy was how much work it took... )


Song: Sweet Music Man- Reba McEntire
Rating: PG
Characters: Anthy, Miki
Spoilers: Episode 5

( Anthy has seen boys like Miki before... )


Song: She's an Angel- They Might Be Giants
Pairing: One-sided Ruka/Juri
Rating: G
Spoilers: Episode 29

( Right from the start, Ruka had known that Juri was special... )


Song: Hold Me Tight- Across the Universe Soundtrack (Beatles Cover)
Pairing: Utena/Anthy
Rating: PG-13
Spoilers: End of the series
A/N: The first Utena/Anthy I've written in literally years. Which is odd, considering that they're my all time favorite OTP. Takes place post-series.

( In the dark, with Anthy's arms wrapped tightly around her, Utena feels like a drowning woman finally taking a breath air... )

Instead of the multitude of other things that I really need to be doing:

Give me two characters from different fandoms you know I'm familiar with, and I'll give you a dialogue happening between the two of them. Without justifying how the crossover would work, how their worlds clashed, or how they could even meet each other. Just a silly crossover conversation with no backstory, for fun.

Taken from blindeadmcjones

01. Pick up to 15 OTPs (or OT3s).
02. Describe them in less than 15 words.
03. Have your flist guess the OTP/OT3.
04. PROFIT.

I suspect that I've made it awfully easy for most of them, but I might be wrong. There is one ultra obscure pairing there! It seems pretty unlikely that anyone will get it.

1. Prince, but no princess. Bride, but no groom. A revolutionary love.
2. Buy me a doughnut. I'd rather die than be a burden.
3. One an idiot, the other easily irritated. Somehow it works. Deeply damaged complements.
4. Found you on the road, thought you laughed. Don't leave your cigarettes in beer cans.
6. Walking the road to hell together, much more than master and servant.
7. Risking my life means I love you. Not quite the legend. Foot in face.
8. On a planet of sand, there's no insurance against falling in love.
9. Warriors and partners. A world without you is not worth living in.
10. Servant/queen, lady/witch. Right now they have each other.
11. Loyalty binds like thread, betrayal pierces like needles. Coming together again.
12. Dumping petals on your head, I love you, really. (But please shut up.)
13. Fixing bodies, fixing machines. Awkward love in the vacuum of space.
14. Silly nicknames, video games... and bloody yakuza shootouts. It must mean true love.
15. Job involving a woman. Only a few days together. Possibilities ruined by a monster.

List your twelve favorite characters for a fandom, in order. Then answer the questions

I answered for Utena.

Utena:

1. Anthy
2. Kozue
3. Juri
4. Shiori
5. Utena
6. Akio
7. Miki
8. Wakaba
9. Mikage
10. The Shadow Play Girls (They count as one character, okay?)
11. Nanami
12. Kanae

( The Questions )

So, yes, anyway. In other new, I have one final down. Two more and a paper to go. Wish me luck.

Dear dancing_serpent,

I’m afraid our romance is over. I think I realized it when we skinny dipped outside of Chicago and I saw you insult my father. I’m sure you’re frostbitten enough to understand that I did a sex-change. I’m returning your ring to you, but I’ll keep your left ear as a memory. You should also know that I never liked eggplant-fetishism.

Go and drown yourself,

Veleda


( How to write your own letter of confession )

Snagged from dancing_serpent

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now (even if we don't speak often or ever), please post a comment with a COMPLETELY MADE UP AND FICTIONAL memory of you and me.

It can be anything you want - good or bad - BUT IT HAS TO BE FAKE.

When you're finished, post this little paragraph in your IJ and see what your friends come up with. (Or don't, if you'd rather not. No skin lost, either way.)

When you see this, post a protest song in your journal.

( Empire by Dar Williams (A little subtle, a little not so subtle. One of my favorites.) )

Just how much of a procrastinator am I? So much that I'm even late in wishing myself a happy birthday. Happy birthday me!

It was a really fun birthday, for all I was dreading it. I got lots of a presents. (Seriously, I was spoiled this year. I think my mom feels guilty that my father isn't around to celebrate my birthday.) Plus, my mom, my brother, and I went out to a really nice restaurant. The food was so good. It was a little embarrassing, but, man, you would have thought that I was orgasming right there in the restaurant. It was really yummy. (Lobster ravioli with tiger shrimp, sushi grade ahi tuna with tempura sea scallops, and three different kinds of crème brûlée.) Also, I had my first legal drink! I don't remember what it was called, but it was good. (I do remember what was in it: champagne, blackberry syrup, and a twist of lemon.)

I'm back to slacking off regarding my school work. Two weeks of studying hard, then it's back to bad habits. But my life is moving forward in other ways. I signed up to start volunteering at Left Hand Books, a not for profit, volunteer staffed, radical bookstore. I'm really excited. It will give me experience with books, which will be helpful when I want to start grad school/my career as a librarian. Not only that, but I'll around people who can relate to me. See, I care. I care about the environment, racism, classism, sexism, homophobia, transphobia, the oppression of developing nations by the American empire, the erosion of civil rights in the US, political prisoners being tortured, attacks on science by the religious right, blatantly false sexual education being taught in our schools, and more. I care a whole hell of a lot. This sounds like bragging, but it's just a fact. And I don't know many people who care on the same level. But at Left Hand Books, I'll be able to find plenty.

I keep meaning to do an article post, but politics are depressing me so much. I should at least do my "John McCain is a homophobic, sexist, hypocritical, warmonger, and no one should vote for him; also Sarah Palin is sexist, horribly homophobic, hypocritical, blatant liar, and no one should vote for her either" post.

So, yeah, that's me right now. Oh, here's a meme from andmydog:

When you see this, post a Douglas Adams quote in your journal.

I love deadlines. I like the whooshing sound they make as they fly by.

Comment with a fandom and I'll tell you my:

One True Pairing Ship:
Canon Ship:
"If this happens I'll stab my eyes out with a spork" Ship:
"You are one sick bastard" Ship:
"I dabble a little" Ship:
"It's like a car crash" Ship:
"Tickles my fancy but not sold just yet" Ship:
"Makes no canon sense but why the Hell not" Ship:
"Everyone else loves it but I just don't feel it" Ship:
"When all is said and done" Ship:

The Smut Writer's Meme: Name a pairing that I know, in either current fandoms or prior, and ask me a question. I'll tell you anything you want to know about their sex lives from my own personal fanon.

Give me something to dooo. /Whine

Meme from terryn73

1. My username is ____ because ____.
2. My journal is titled ____ because ____.
3. My subtitle is ____ because ____.
4. My journal name is ____ because ____.
5. My friends page is called ____ because ____.
6. My default userpic is ____ because ____.


1. My username is Veleda_k because Veleda is the name of one of the heroines from an old, now out of print fantasy series called "The Daughters of Bast" that I loved. (Basic plot: Egyptian mythology + loose Celtic history.) K is the first letter of my first name.

2. My journal is titled Embryo of Philosophy because, first of all, it's a line from the second Revolutionary Girl Utena ending song. And I really love Utena. Second, I thought it kind of fitting, the idea being that the thoughts in this journal aren't philosophy, but perhaps the very beginnings of it.

3. My subtitle is A Transmission on the Midnight Radio because it's a line from Midnight Radio, a song from my favorite movie, Hedwig and the Angry Inch.

4. My journal name is A Figment of My Own Imagination because of an IM conversation that I had with tekararogue. I originally said it just to be silly, but it can also be interpreted as a statement about my mental landscape and the nature of reality. So, you see, it's ridiculous and meaningless, but also really pretentious. Just like me!

5. My friends page is called These People Should Scare You because I figured that most anyone who would show up on my friends list would be frightening to average people in some way.

6. My default userpic is "Vote Devil '08" with slogans, because I think it's funny, and a well done riff on how politcal campaigns are run.


One a completely, utterly, and in all other ways totally different topic, the first Phoenix Wright game, case five, third trial day, Ema's cross-examination three? ....Fuck. I now have the urge to go back in time and tell Lana, "You know what? You're right, you did do it. I totally agree. Let's not look into this any further." I feel sorry for Lana. She's in court waving her arms saying, "I waive my right to an attorney! I plead guilty!" And everyone around her is all, "Be quiet foolish person, we have a case to solve." Also, Gant is scary. Hey! Who's up for a cage match between Gant and Manfred Von Karma? Would that not be awesome?

Seven Things Meme

A. List seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.
B. Tag seven people to do the same.
C. Do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag "whoever wants to do it."

I was tagged by hulamoth.

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I really don't like tagging people, so I'm not going to, no matter what the meme says.

A couple of weeks back, I decided on a whim to get Count Cain volume two (released over here as Cain Saga volume 2). I wasn't crazy about the first volume, but I had hope that it would get better.

I read the story that shows how Cain and Riff met.

I was so hooked.

I recently went out and bought the rest, and it has taken some self control not to grab all of the Godchild volumes as well.

( Spoilers for The Cain Saga volumes (one through four part two/five) )

Today, I finally, finally got my hands on Saiyuki Reload volume eight. It was awesome, of course.

( Spoilers )

And now, for something completely different a meme.

Name a character from one of my fandoms, and I will tell you in at least 100 words what that character loves best about another character from the same fandom. You can name more than one character if you want. Give me something to do.

I should post about my life, but I don't want to right now. So there. Instead, this meme, taken from ranalore.


The Fic Wish List Meme

Rules: List 1-10 pairings/prompts that you have been dying to read. Maybe it's a really rare pairing or something you've requested on any of the past smut memes which haven't been fulfilled. When you see this posted on your friends' journals, you may do one of the following:

- Write it.

- Link to one that's already been written, whether by you or someone else.

- Nothing, but karma will get you. >_>

There are no length or rating limits, and prompts may be duplicated (PLEASE). Be specific in your prompts particularly in reference to preferred smut content, seme/uke order, and any other requirements that may hinder your appreciation of the fic.

There is no deadline for this, but once your ten prompts have been written to your satisfaction you are welcome to make a new post starting over. You may write your own prompts if you want. If your tastes change, you can certainly switch out one prompt for another at any time.

1. Kinky Tsuzuki/Hisoka sex with Hisoka topping. There is not enough of this. At all. Bondage, D/s, role play, whatever. I crave kinky.

2. Post-series Anthy/Utena BDSM with Anthy on top. Why does this not exist? It makes me cry.

3. Hisoka interacting with the YnM cast in a completely non-sexual way. Literary disscusion with the Gushoshin, Fuda training with Konoe, listening to Watari talk about science, practicing kyudo with Terazuma. He has a life outside of Tsuzuki, after all.

4. Anansi Boys/American Gods cross-over fic in which Shadow and Fat Charlie meet.

5. Hunter/Serpentine Neverwhere fic. The canon lesbians (or bisexuals, I don't know) are not getting enough attention.

6. Hisoka and Muraki fic that keeps both of them in character and has them actually interacting. They're my two favorite characters, but 98% of fic I find featuring them is just rape fic with helpless, cringing Hisoka. Very annoying.

7. Anthy/Akio BDSM fic. They must have tried nearly every sexual perversion in the book (hell, they probably wrote the book), so why is the no fic? Either one could be on top.

8. More Hisoka/Tatsumi/Tsuzuki. Yes, I will get around to writing more, but I want more that's not written by me.

9. Fic in which Franziska von Karma dominates the hell out the majority of the Phoenix Wright cast. (Franziska/Edgeworth seems too close to incest to me, and Pearl is off limits for obvious for obvious reasons, but other than that!)

10. More fic in which Muraki has consensual sex with someone who's just as evil as he is. Cross-overs are good. (I have a fondness for Muraki/Akabane.)